Total Recall

I spent half a day going over my old stuff.

I actually had doubts as to how long I was going to finish it. I was pretty sure that it would take me some time because more than deciding what stuff to let go, I was expecting that I will read, reminisce and recall memories through the stuff that I have.

I went through a box of letters and cards from friends back in high school and college. As much as I wanted to go through the letters and cards I have received over the years, I had to just arrange them. Otherwise, baka February na hindi pa ako tapos sa pag-ayos ng stuff ko.

I still have the "Giant Rascals" camping banner we had when I was in 4th year high school. I still have the retreat letters - both from teachers and friends - back in 4th year high school. I still have those little birthday gifts from friends back in college and the hirits they had with the letters sent. I still have those bookmarks with notes from friends.

I went through my collection of key chains and pins. Those stuff remind me of the places I have been to and how blessed I am to have gone to those places and to enjoy it with great people. Aside from places, I also had key chains and pins which remind of events - 100th year of independence, JS Prom, among others.

I gathered old pictures that were not yet placed in albums - pictures taken during college and work. Scrapbooking is definitely one of the things I look forward to doing after taking the bar .. hehe.

I scanned my scrapbook of celebrities with a number of autographed pictures. I wonder when I would get to write to another celebrity.

I decided to hold on to my X-Files, David Duchovny, Noah Wyle, Ryan Agoncillo and Scrapbooking magazines.

I went over some files and documents - diplomas, certificates, school publications, transcript of records. I decided to throw away my pay slips after all these years (huwaat!?!)

I gathered all of what is left of my stationery collection as well as unused planners. I also gathered all the gratitude journals that I have kept since I was in college. I also kept my math journal, which I had in high school. I also found my thin notebook of poems I have made when I was in grade school and high school .. hehe. I think I will post it if I have nothing to post.

I also arranged by VCD collection (hindi pa ganun ka-uso ang DVD nung nag-start ako collect). I also checked the CDs I have, which included MP3s, pictures and work files .. hehe. I had fun scanning through the pictures :)

All in all, I think it was a nice trip to memory lane.

My 2008

As 2009 begins, I guess a 2008 recap is timely.

Generally, my 2008 was pretty simple yet absolutely ok. I can truly say my 2008 was one blessed year!

Here’s a rundown of my top 3 events (high & low) for each month

JANUARY

Turned 27, with a surprised birthday cake .. hehe!

Decided to join the Cheerdance competition and never regretted it even with the practices!

Tirik moments with the car and people ready to help!

FEBRUARY

Over-all champion sa Conflicts – hardwork and faith paid off!

DL!

Valentines’ Day picture taking and dressing up!

MARCH

Commentator!

Super Unlitxt!

Being appreciated!

APRIL

No Corpo exam .. toynk!

Cousins from Manila!

Food trips!

MAY

Busy-busyhan – reviewers, transcriptions, TV!

American Idol!

Isla Reta!

JUNE

Ultimate Manila Family Trip – dolphins, TGIF, PBB, etc!

US Visa – approve/denied!

DL!

JULY

Hanna passing the nursing board!

Red day!

Doctrine!

AUGUST

Inspired by the Beijing Olympics!

A Very Special Love!

New York thoughts!

SEPTEMBER

Mom’s promotion!

Outburst – with matching tears and katawa!

Group effort!

OCTOBER

Lolo’s first death anniversary!

Frustrations!

Survivor Fever!

NOVEMBER

Lola being in the hospital for a week!

Father’s good luck!

Buffet at Nanay Bebeng’s!

DECEMBER

Gatherings, parties & games with classmates, schoolmates and friends!

Christmas and New Year with Family!

Blueberry cheesecake, spaghetti, carbonara and cupcakes!

Cheers to 2009, with prayers for another blessed year to all of us!

The Watcher

While I admit that being a 4^th year law student eats a lot of my time, I think I did fairly well when it came to watching movies on the big screen for the past months.

With the holidays at hand, I felt privileged that I have already watched two movies in the big screen and two movies in the DVD.

The Day The Earth Stood Still

Eh kung makita ko naman talaga si Keanu in person, the world will really be at stand still for me .. haha!

Anyway, I’m happy that it has been a blockbuster movie. Admittedly, it was not that amazing for a sci-fi flick. I felt that things were not surprising and there was not much thrill. Yes, I know that it seems Keanu is forever associated with emotionless alien-like characters on the big screen. But what can I do? I do not have the money to produce a flick.

Back to the movie, I knew what was coming when we decided to watch the movie. I told my brother and sisters that it was a remake and it will tell us to avoid war – plain and simple .. hehe. O, di ba .. may moral lesson? Aside from that, I just enjoyed watching Keanu to make all the P 85 (paid by my mom) worthwhile .. hehe

The Chronicles of Narnia – Prince Caspian

One of those films that I have been longing to see for quite some time. At last, I already got the chance to watch it.

I looked forward to seeing again the 2 sons of Adam and the 2 daughters of Eve and meeting Prince Caspian. The film did not fail me. While I expected that this would be another “moral lesson” film, I enjoyed it nevertheless.

I enjoyed the flashlight brought by Edmund. I enjoyed Lucy’s new friend and the ever-lasting potion. I enjoyed Susan rescuing Prince Caspian. I enjoyed Peter’s courage. I enjoyed Aslan’s fur waving in the air na parang commercial sa buhok.

I think the film brings hope to the hopeless, courage to the fearsome and faith to the non-believers. That’s why I like it!

Eagle Eye

I already had an inkling where the film is going through the feedback I have heard and read.

Nevertheless, the Eagle Eye was still a thrill. I like the chase scenes and how things were worked out. However, it also made me wonder about a future such as that .. hmm ..

Tanging Ina Ninyong Lahat

I have to admit that I was looking forward to watch this MMFF film. Why not? I enjoyed the first film which I watched in the big screen twice .. haha. No kidding!

While this film was still funny in some ways, the first film was funnier. I think I was looking forward to more dramatic scenes and just when you are about to get carried away, they make it funny. There’s not much to that in the second flick. Most were “kasabihans” which were funny but then I already heard most of it from the trailers.

Funny scenes? When the door was slammed “silent” by Tenten .. hehe .. I was still laughing when I got home and tried to close the door. Another funny scene was the “Isa kang salot!” – “I may be a slut but I am the best slut in town” exchange – hilarious! Yup, dramatic scene turned funny.

I guess I also find it confusing being a law student. I was thinking all the time that the President cannot do those PDs and RAs she has enacted in the movie because the President executes the law and does not legislate .. haha .. I know I think too much. I guess it is innate.

Yup, 4 films for less than 2 weeks. Not bad at all!

'Tis the Season to be Jolly ...

Christmas is definitely my favorite holiday!

I always look forward to the glorious food. I always look forward to seeing and being with people whom I haven't seen for some time. I always look forward to more family time. But more than all of these, I always look forward to celebrating the birth of Christ, the reason for the season - the reason why I look forward to life!

My Christmas officially started by attending the LA Foundation Christmas Party at PAGCOR, which I truly enjoyed with all the food and being with people. Sayang, wala akong prize na uwi .. pero enjoy pa rin .. hehe

Next came the LA Christmas Party at Camp Holiday, Samal, which I actually think was a Summer Outing .. hehe. I truly enjoyed the games and I felt bitin ... hehe .. Lingaw and gi-career jud ang games :)

My third party was with a few of my high school batchmaters. As usual, it is always nice to have a blast from the past. We were not that many but it sure did not dampen our spirits enjoying each other's company.

Then, the next party I attended was with tenants of the JMS building. Of course, I enjoyed the food. But I had to leave early because I had an exam the next day. But I heard that they really enjoyed the party as well.

I think I our visit to the Home for the Aged was also party. I hope they enjoyed our visit as much as I did.

Class party came last Saturday and that was fun as well. It was indeed a hep hep hooray event!

Of course, the Christmas Eve dinner with the family is an event which I look forward to. No, we were not dressed up to the nines but we made sure we had food on the table. I prepared Italian spaghetti (na medyo na wala ang pagka-Italian kay my mom insisted to have white sauce on top of it .. hehe), blueberry cheesecake, ham and a strawberry flat cake (na dapat short cake pero wala niburot mao flat cake na lang .. hehe)

I also enjoyed the fact that we had gift-giving with my dearest lola around. I am not sure if she gets that's its Christmas because of her Alzheimer's. But I am happy that she has a smile on her face.

Yes, indeed .. 'tis the season to be jolly!

Shout for Joy

July 1996. December 2003. December 2008.

Memorable dates for me - a Gary Valenciano fanatic residing in the City of Davao.

I can still remember the first time I watch Gary V's Concert back when I was in Grade 6. I can even remember that it was a Saturday and I was earlier in school practicing for our dance number for the miting de avance for the Student Council Election. That was Gary V.'s "Shout for Joy" concert and I surely shouted for joy.

Fast forward to December 2003 when Gary had a show at the Venue. Through Maan's persistence, she was able to get tickets for us to watch the fantastic show. Super enjoy and just the same, I was shouting for joy while Maan was the one shrieking for joy .. hehe!

Early in December 2008, we saw the huge billboard advertising Gary V's concert. And we decided to check out the ticket prices. And so a few days before the concert, my dad surprised us and told us that he already bought tickets for 4 of his angels (hehe).

So, off we went ot watch the concert. My brother and sisters were pretty excited because this was their first time to watch a concert. I was excited for them. I was excited that we are together watching Gary V's show and I was excited because I was really sure that we would enjoy it.

And we sure did! Gary V. truly rocks! It was pretty exciting as well because all of his children came on stage to perform .. music royalty indeed!

The show was more than entertaining. It was inspiring. Gary V shared how blessed and grateful he is for overcoming whatever obstacles that have come his way through God's grace. Gary V showed us how to celebrate the season - to be with the family. Gary V inspired us by performing in the said benefit show and being a UNICEF ambassador.

Gary V is one awesome performer. I have been a fan of his since I was in Grade 3. He writes wonderful songs and sings it with so much passion.

We truly enjoyed the show! Until the next concert :)

Ambisyosa

"FBI"

I always dreamt of saying that for real, with matching an action showing an ID.

While we were having our class, our discussion somehow reached NBI and how it had the feel of FBI in the Philippines before. Sir mentioned that it used to be that there were lawyers and accountants in NBI before. (At this point, I felt my seatmates are looking at me .. toynk!)

Anyhow, I find it funny. I think anybody who knew me way back in college or even some of my officemates are aware of this "dream" of mine.

Criminology was actually one of my top 5 choices for a college course. No, I did not want to be a police woman. I wanted to be an FBI agent. I really did not want to be an NBI agent because I felt it did not had that stature of FBI like in the US. But I decided not to pursue criminology because it would be of no use to someone in the Philippines who dreams of becoming an FBI agent.

My "dream" of being an FBI agent is probably rooted in my "love" for The X-Files. I was already a fan back in high school.

In college, I looked forward to days where I can wear a jacket. Why? Because I like to place my ID in the inside jacket and then show it to the guard. Kulang na lang sabihin ko FBI agent ako .. hehe. Actually, based on the TV series, one can show their ID by flipping their wallet. But I like keeping it in my jacket and make fun of myself in class showing my ID .. hehe.

Back then in our computer laboratory class, my classmate and I would go to the FBI site and check out qualifications for an FBI agent. I found out I am disqualified for many reasons - I am not a US citiizen and not even a resident. I think I did not reach their height requirement. And I do not have a 20/20 vision. Oh, well ...

When I started working, we had an activity and I remember that one of the questions asked was what is your greatest dream. I wrote "to be an FBI agent". Laugh trip!

Actually, I was asked by one of my US office mates a more or less the same question. And I said the same answer. In fairness, he did not laugh at me. He said he actually sees me being an FBI agent. (O, ha!) I am not sure if he was just taking me for a ride. But it made be happy .. hehe. He said that he knew someone who is an FBI agent who is sort of like me. Then, I mentioned my disqualifications and I heard that most of the time, I could just be at my desk .. hehe. And he said, he heard that too. That was actually a nice discussion.

I am not anymore hoping that I could be an FBI agent someday. It was one of those dreams which is unlikely to come true but you just dream about it anyhow. Maybe in another life time.

Oh, well .. libre lang naman mangarap :)

Amazing Race 13

I could not remember the last time I had so much butterflies in my stomach just watching Amazing Race, or any reality TV show for that reason.

For every season, I always pick my favorites. Sometimes, they make it. Sometimes, they don’t. That’s ok. I can deal with that. Usually, the most unlucky thing that could happen to a team is with regard to a cab – either having difficulty to get any or having a cab but getting lost in the way.

It’s a given that its most likely that a team composed of two alpha males would win. Next in line would be couples. I liked the family season where the siblings won – 1 girl with 3 brothers.

So, everytime there is a new season. I am hoping that an all-female team would win. However, I do not find most of the all-female teams worthy to cheer on. Next choice would always be parent-child team. It was interesting that last season, there was a father-daughter and grandfather-grandson teams in the final 3. They placed second and third respectively. Bummer.

Our family had a "discussion" a while ago about joining the Amazing Race. I do not doubt that my dad has the capacity to join. We were discussing who will bicker the most or who would they want as a team mate. Modesty aside, I think I was the easy choice for direction/map-reading purposes. However, I have given up my dream of being a part of these kind of reality contest due to my scoliosis. I don't think they would ever allow me. That's ok. I have already accepted that reality. Maybe in my next lifetime .. hehe

This season I was rooting for Toni and Dallas, the mother and son team. Next was Nick and Starr, the siblings.

I really had a bad feeling that Toni and Dallas would be booted tonight. The teasers showed that a team will lose their passports and money. It made me worry. At around 9 pm tonight, AXN was a no show and signal came back at 10 pm. I checked that there would be a 12mn replay. My sister and I waited for it.

It was excruciating. When I watched the teaser, I had an inkling that they were the ones who will lose it. When I watched the episode and Toni left the passport and money to Dallas (those were the instructions I think), I felt butterflies in my stomach. At the taxi, I saw Dallas put some stuff on top of his bag. When he left the cab, those stuff fell and Dallas realized that their stuff got stuck in the cab and it was too late to go after the cab. By the way, they were in Russia.

It was nice that there were Russians who gave money so that they could go on the race. And they did go on the race. But they were still the last team to arrive. I think Phil was quite sad when he said that they were the last team to arrive.

I think it was really nice of Toni for not scolding Dallas. I do not think it has something to do with the editing. Dallas really felt bad because I felt that he really wanted to win for his mom. Over-all, I really like their relationship in the sense that they know how blessed they are with each other. However, luck was not really on their side when they reached Russia.

Oh well .. that’s reality TV! So, it is Nick and Starr for the win. A win by the Dan and Andrew team, probably the luckiest team in the history of Amazing Race, will be the biggest upset ever.

So, I am really hoping JC won’t be eliminated tomorrow in Survivor Philippines. I have enough sadness over reality TV for this week and it’s still Monday.

Skywalker

During one of our review classes, Ma'am asked if "naabutan ba ninyo si Samboy Lim? Yung pinapaharipan yung shot eh ang dali na lang sana"

To which I replied, "naabutan .." Medyo excited ang voice sa "naa" na part pero medyo humina sa "butan..." when I realized that it seemed I was the only one who answered. It's either my classmates were not basketball fanatics back then, they just did not want to answer the question or I am just a bit older than they are.

I think it's a combination of them not that being much of basketball fans and me a bit older than them and being a basketball fan.

Yes, naabutan ko si Samboy Lim, a.k.a The Skywalker. Samboy Lim, Allan Caidic and Ato Agustin are the triple threat of SMB during the '90s. Actually, pinaka-fan ako ni Allan Caidic. Next na sina Samboy, Ato, and later si Olsen and the rest of the Beermen.

I will remember Samboy with his knee-high socks .. hehe

Buti hindi tinanong ni Ma'am kung anong team si Samboy? SMB.

Buti hindi tinanong ni Ma'am kung anong jersey number ni Samboy? #9

Buti hindi tinanong ni Ma'am kung kelan birthday ni Samboy? April 1

Buti hindi tinanong kung sino fan ni Samboy dito? Malamang sasabihin ko na ako. At malamang sasabihin ko rin na bumili ako ng postcard na nandun siya at meron akong poem ginawa about Samboy Lim .. haha .. Kaya lang hindi ko na mahanap yung notebook ko na iyon na puno ng poems na ginawa ko nung elementary and high school .. haha ..

Kung tinanong ako ni Ma'am na if nakita ko na si Samboy in person, sasabihin ko oo.

Kung tinanong ako ni Ma'am if humingi ako ng autograph, sasabihin ko hindi.

Sasabihin ko na nag-papicture lang ako with Samboy.

We were staying in Kowloon Panda Hotel nung April 2001. After eating free breakfast dun sa restaurant area nila, nasalubong ko si Samboy with his family sa escalator. Nag-smile ako, nag-smile din sila. Hinintay ko dad ko (basketball fanatic din iyon!). Sabi niya magpapicture kami pag bumaba na. Sabi ko hindi ko kaya na ako ang magsabi if ok magpapicture. Nung bumaba na sila, ang mommy ko ang lumapit and sinabi “Is it ok if I take a picture of you with my daughter? She is a big fan of yours. She has a big poster of you in her room”. (Wala akong poster niya .. hehe) So, picture, picture na. Ang bait ni Samboy and mukhang mabait din iyong wife and anak niya.

Malabo ang pic kasi wala kaming scanner.

Di ba sabi ko naabutan ko si Samboy? Naabutan ko nga .. hehe

Just Stand Up

I like this song - nice and inspiring.

It is also great because various female artists are involved in this.

I think it more than a song about fighting cancer but the obstacles in life in general.

Sing on!

Beyonce: The heart is stronger than you think,
It’s like it can go through anything.
And even when you think it can’t it finds a way to still push on, though

Carrie: Sometimes you want to run away, Ain’t got the patience for the pain
And if you don’t believe it look into, your heart the beat goes on

Rihanna: I’m tellin’ you that,

Rihanna/Miley: Things get better, Through whatever

Rihanna: If you fall, dust it off, don’t let up

Sheryl: Don’t you know you can go be your own miracle

Beyonce: You need to know

CHORUS :
Sheryl: If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough, But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up

Sheryl/Beyonce: Who are we to be..questioning, wondering what is what
Don’t give up…THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Fergie: It’s like we all have better days
Problems getting all up in your face

Leona: Just because you go through it

Fergie: Don’t mean it got to take control, no

Leona: You ain’t gotta find no hiding place

Keyshia: Because the heart can beat the hate

Leona: Don’t wanna let your mind keep playin’ you

Keyshia: And sayin’ you can’t go on

Rihanna: I’m tellin’ you that

Miley: Things get better
Through whatever

Rihanna: If you fall

Miley: Dust if off, don’t let up

LeAnn: Don’t you know you

Natasha: Can go

LeAnn: Be your own

Natasha: Miracle

Carrie: You need to know

Ensemble: CHORUS

Mary: You don’t gotta be a prisoner in your mind

Ciara: If you fall, dust it off

Mary: You can live your life

Rihanna/Carrie: Yeah

Mary: Let your heart be your guide

Rihanna/Carrie: Yeah yeah yeah

Mariah: And you will know that you’re good if you trust in the good

Ashanti: Everything will be alright, yeah
Light up the dark, if you follow your heart

Mary: And it will get better

Mariah: Through whatever

CHORUS

Fergie: You got it in you, find it within
You got in now, find it within now
You got in you, find it within
You got in now, find it within now
You got in you, find it within
Find it within you, find it within

Everyone: THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Happy

(Read this article in the Philippine Star and I thought of sharing this ... read on)

How to be happy

MIND YOUR BODY By Willie T. Ong, MD Updated November 25, 2008 12:00 AM

Is there a person alive who doesn’t want to be happy? There isn’t one. But how often do we think of ways to be happy? If you’re feeling sad because of some family or financial problems, don’t despair. Here are 20 strategies to be happy;

• Decide to be happy. Make a plan. Think of ways and things that bring you happiness. Set happy goals not just for yourself but include others, too. Then, think of what to do next. (I am happy. Mas energy, mas happy!)

• Use your talents. Identify your strengths. Can you sing, dance, draw, paint, write, or speak? Find and cultivate these strengths of yours. Focus on them and they will bring you confidence and satisfaction. Do what you were meant to do in this world.(I will sing to my own tune and dance to my own beat!)

• Play. Play with your kids. Have fun with friends. Take time to relax and play. There’s nothing wrong with having fun and liking your work. Go through your normal day in an easy and light manner. (All study and no play makes jazzie a dull girl .. hehe)

• Be curious. Try to see happiness around you. Watch the sunrise, feel the cool breeze, listen to the birds chirping and see people smiling. Nature is full of happiness. (Why do lawmakers make confusing laws? Why are there conflicting jurisprudence?)

• Count your blessings. Be grateful and happy with what you have. Accept the blessings that you have and think positively about the things you do not have. Maybe you weren’t meant to get it anyway and that something better is in store. Look at the bright side always. (Grateful!)

• Like yourself. Everybody commits a mistake at some point in their lives. It’s part of our learning process, whether it’s because of our youth or ignorance. Try to make amends on the mistakes you made and then let it go. A wise man said that it’s the things we didn’t do that we later regret, and not the things and mistakes that we did. (Love your own .. hehe)

• Pamper yourself. After a long work day, treat yourself to a warm, refreshing bath. Enjoy your favorite magazine. Tinker around with your hobbies. And when you feel like a kid, bring out the child in you. (I pamper myself with watching TV, eating and surfing the net .. hehe)

• Enjoy close relationships. A unique study shows that talking to a supportive friend is as effective as taking a tablet of pain reliever. There is something heavenly in true and caring friends. Invest your time in building close relationships. They are as good as money in the bank. (Family and friends .. woohoo!)

• Find positive people. Surround yourself with positive and happy people. Find good mentors. They can be the key to your success. Some believe the other person’s good influence and good karma will also bring you luck. Happy people tend to be more supportive of others, too. (And avoid those who bring negative vibes …)

• Volunteer to help someone in need. If you want to receive P2,000 worth of happiness, donate P2,000 to your favorite charity. Studies show that the more people give to others, the happier they become. (… in my own little way)

• Think happy thoughts. Positive thinking proponent Norman Vincent Peale says that if a negative thought should enter your mind, you should immediately block it with a positive one. If a fearful thought crosses your mind, tell yourself that you’ll overcome it, and that you’ll be alright. Think positive. (Happy, happy, happy ….)

• See and hear happy news. Read inspiring books. Watch happy movies. Look for the good news in the papers and magazines. Fill your minds with positive and constructive news. (See no evil, hear no evil?)

• Laugh. If you watched Patch Adams, you know that the doctor’s secret cure for his patients is to simply make them laugh. Wearing a clown’s makeup, Dr. Adams brings joy to cancer-stricken kids. A study by Dr. Lee Berk shows that watching an hour of comedy movie releases 27 percent more good endorphins in the body. Endorphins help reduce pain and stress, and boost the immune system. (Watch AFV .. hehe)

• Follow your instincts. In the best-selling book Blink, author Malcolm Gladwell says our minds can make a wise decision based on our gut feel or intuition. Most of the time, this turns out correctly. In business decisions and relationships, it pays to listen to this inner voice of wisdom. (… especially when you don’t know the answer to the exam question .. hehe)

• Be healthy. Being healthy is a prerequisite to being happy. Get a checkup and see your doctor. Avoid alcohol and cigarettes. (Eat a glass of milk each night and vitamins, vitamins .. )

• Eat healthy and exercise. Go for something green or orange. Green leafy vegetables and orange-colored tomatoes, carrots, and citrus fruits are high in antioxidants. Exercise moderately and stay active for your age. (Channel surfing is my favorite exercise!)

• Find the right amount of stress. Studies show that too much stress from work can lead to anxiety, restlessness, and anger. However, too little stress can also lead to boredom. The secret is in finding the right amount of work that will make you productive and happy. (Law school gives me the right amount of stress – this goes back to thinking happy thoughts)

• Sleep. Make sure that you get adequate sleep and rest, like around seven to eight hours. If you have insomnia, just lying in bed and thinking happy and restful thoughts can relax your body, too. (Yey .. sleep approximately at 2.30 am then wake-up at 10:00 am .. hehe ..)

• Be in love. Gerontology professor Dr. David Demko believes that being in love can prolong one’s life by as much as seven years. Married people or those with close relationships are generally happier compared to single people living alone. If you don’t have a partner, then having a close friend, a pet or a hobby canbe a substitute. (I love life!)

• Believe. Studies show that people who have a strong sense of spirituality are 40-percent happier than those who don’t. People who hope for a brighter future and sense a meaning and purpose in their lives are happier and more fulfilled. (Oh, when you believe ….)

• Try to have faith in yourself. Have faith, too, in the goodness of others. And finally, have faith in God. If you’re not happy today, don’t worry, because slowly things will get better. It always does. You have all the resources you need to be happy. (Keep the faith!)

What Was I Thinking

Maraming iniisip. Malayo ang iniisip. Kulang sa isip. Wala sa isip

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Cereals with orange juice for breakfast. Take note that the orange juice was poured into the cereals instead of using milk. Malayo ang iniisip.

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Putting "chapstick" before going to bed. After combing hair and before leaving the house for school, I put it on. It became such a routine that after combing hair before going to sleep, chapstick was put on. Wala sa isip.

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Reading the Bible then, looking at the bottom for a footnote after seeing a number after a word as a superscript. Forgot that the number refers to the verse, and not a footnote. Got used to reading text books/notes with such footnote reference. Wala sa isip.

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Opening the refrigerator and grabbing a pitcher of water. Actually, looking for soy sauce and not water. There should be no reason to look for soy sauce in the refrigerator. Maraming iniisip.

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Laughed when read "easy" questions on an exam questionnaire. It was actually, "essay" question. Wala sa isip.

-oOo-

Hindi "bilog ang mundo". It is spheroid. Ano Tagalog ng spheroid? Maraming iniisip.

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Anong Tagalog ng "either"? Maraming iniisip.

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Kung ang ocean ay karagatan in Tagalog at ang sea ay dagat in Tagalog, ano ang Tagalog ng beach? Maraming iniisip.

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Comparing personal answers to questions and grades in first year and second year as to answers in fourth year. Personal assessment - probably better back then. Mom said there is a reason. Unlike in first year to third year, coverage was limited unlike in fourth year. Now, there is information overload and it is more likely to forget more stuff. Information overload or lack of memory. Pano na sa bar? Kulang sa isip at Maraming iniisip.

-oOo-

1st sem is unoffiically over since the results are not yet out. Full throttle for second sem started - study for an exam, prepare for a recit, prepare for requirements, study other subjects in between. Maraming iisipin.

This is it!

Liar, Liar

I guess one of the things that somehow pisses me of is when someone insinuates that I am lying.

I am not a saint. I try my best not to tell lies. It is really hard but I try not to.

I may have a high tolerance for other people's confusing personalities. But, sometimes, push really comes to shove ...

Yes, I do keep things to myself. But I think it's a whole new ballgame when someone insinuates to another that I may not be telling the truth. The most that person could probably do is tell it to my face that I am not telling truth.

I can't understand why people act that way. You treat them nicely and help them out in your own little way. And then, this is how they talk about you - or for anything or anyone you are associated with.

What is more confusing is such person is insinuating something I have no idea of. Maybe such person is right. Maybe such person is wrong. But maybe there is really something to what such person is talking about and I just do not have any inkling of it. The best such person could do is probably ask me personally and just don't come to conclusions and immediately associating things and people just like that.

What is most confusing is that such person seem to forget to reflect upon the mirror ...

Oh, well ...

Watch

Last night, my sister asked me what do I want as a gift from my aunt this Christmas.

The first thing that I blurted out was a stop watch!

And then, I laughed.

Just before I was asked, I mentioned to my friend that I used to have a goal to study for 8 hours within a 24-hour period. There were times that I really counted the hours, up to the last minute, that I studied. This is less the water breaks, food breaks, CR breaks or chika breaks. I rarely reach my goal during school days. Sometimes, I do get to study for 8 hours if there is no school. I only counted the number of hours I studied for a short time. And then, I stopped because it was useless since I rarely get to reach that goal anyway.

With 2nd sem-4th year at hand, I was thinking of getting a real stop watch - the one they use on basketball games and not the one I have on my mobile phone.

I am not sure if that wish was pathetic .. hehe. Maybe. Maybe not.

Anyhow, I just said that a lotion or perfume would be fine.

My sister added if I am sure because they are asking for boots and bag. They said maybe I want to get some new clothes.

I said I was ok. I have enough clothes for now.

But I do not have a stop watch :)

Uncool

Jennifer Aniston calls Angelina Jolie's 2007 Remarks About Working with Brad Pitt 'Uncool'

LOS ANGELES, Calif. -- Jennifer Aniston is sounding off about her ex-husband's current partner, Angelina Jolie.

In a new cover story for Vogue magazine, conducted by writer Jonathan Van Meter, Jennifer said Angelina's interview with the fashion magazine in January 2007, in which the "Changeling" star revealed details about the start of her romance with Brad Pitt, was tough to read.

"There was stuff printed there that was definitely from a time when I was unaware that it was happening," Aniston said in her new interview, which will appear in Vogue's December 2008 issue. "I felt those details were a little inappropriate to discuss."

In the original January '07 article Jennifer was referring to, Angelina told Vogue that it was clear Brad was "with his best friend, someone he loves and respects." But, Angelina's comments about the excitement she felt going to work on the set of "Mr. & Mrs. Smith," where she met Brad, were stinging.

"That stuff about how she couldn't wait to get to work every day? That was really uncool," Jennifer said.

But while Angelina's remarks were hurtful, Jennifer said her split with Brad was not as rough as people might have thought.

"It was never that bad," she said. "I mean, look, it's not like divorce is something that you go, 'Ooh, I can't wait to get divorced!' It doesn't feel like a tickle. But I've got to tell you, it's so vague at this point, it's so far away in my mind, I can't even remember the darkness."

And Jennifer's light continues to shine with her upcoming roles in "Marley & Me" and "He's Just Not Into You," and with her rumored rekindled romance with John Mayer.

"I deeply, deeply care about him; we talk, we adore one another," Jennifer said of the musician. "And that's where it is."

3 Dads and 1 Mommy

Bitter-sweet ...

I was happy that I got home just in time. The last episode of "3 Dads and 1 Mommy" was just shown a couple of hours ago.

For about 2 months, every Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday night, I fervently watched every single episode of this Asianovela - or whatever you may call it. More than anything else, the show never failed to make me laugh.

This is the first of its kind that I watched. I don't know if there will be another one.

I was just too happy with the ending! It was what I really hoped for from the very beginning. I had doubts over the past few days because of what they have shown. But I was seriously hoping that the Justin was the real dad .. and he was! Yahoo! Just the way I like it!

While I do like the ending, I'm a bit sad because there is less to look forward to during weeknights .. tsk, tsk .. Oh, well. Life is like that.

Thanks to Jake, Jayden, Ariel, Lizette and Nicole for making my weeknights really fun.

Hmm .. I wonder what happened to Mr. James ...

You Can't Hurry Love

"My Only U"

I haven't been to the cinemas since August. And I think this movie was the perfect fix for my sentiments lately.

I was very happy when I got the chance to watch "A Very Special Love" on its 3rd week. And when I felt I had some free time, I took the chance to watch "My Only U". I think "My Only U" is funnier than a "A Very Special Love". I also like its story line better. But it doesn't mean I like it better. I like both films in different levels .. char!

Jologs na kung jologs but that is just me .. hehe.

There are some stuff that doesn't make me react much - patola, punks, rock n' roll, the kissing scene. But the weird thing is I think many people found this funny. Oh, well, I'm weird :)

Just to sum things up, here are my top 10 favorites as to this movie:

1. I love John Lloyd Cruz! Sun dance works! I super love his cameo here - along with Ronnie Magsanoc, Sam Milby and Zanjoe Marudo.

2. Vhong-Toni tandem clicks! They make you smile, cry, laugh, teary-eyed in a matter of seconds. I guess they make you look like you are going out of your mind!

3. I like the songs "You Can't Hurry Love" and "Kasama Kang Tumanda". Even before this flick, I love Phil Collins singing "You Can't Hurry Love". I even have a tape of it. I also like it because it was featured in Julia Robert's "Runaway Bride". I think the Tagalog song sounds like a "tagalized" version of "Growing Old With You." But I like the lyrics and the melody ... "umabot man tayo sa 3001"

4. I like the "4-season" scene. I know this is similar to a scene in Notting Hill, which I super like!

5. I like the evolution of the "kamay". It maybe corny to some but hey, I'm a certified corny!

6. Supporting casts - Kit Kat and Empoy as Sheryl and Romnick is carino-brutal. I like their exchange! I also find Empoy's dance moves funny! Janus role is ok. I know it may be cruel to a hairlip but there are really some scenes that can make you laugh. I don't think it has much to do with being a hairlip but ever since, Janus presence as a comedian makes me laugh.

7. Funny lines or situations along the way - Rosa Rosal scene, tulong not tulak scene, i love you Lord scene, among others.

8. The bulag-pipi lines somehow sticks to you and makes you think about people who have eyes but can't see and those who have tongues but can't speak. Isn't it ironic?

9. The story line seems corny but is actually refreshing. I knew that there was a twist in the end and we made a guess but we were a bit wrong. And to think that we went inside the cinema just when the super-twist was revealed. But I didn't feel that watching the movie after seeing the twist spoiled the movie itself. It was still fun to watch!

10. It makes you more appreciative of life and gain more perspective of death. I try to live my life that way and to see how it is tackled on-screen, in a comedic way, somehow makes me smile and forget that my worries (even for awhile).

PS - I think the movie poster could be better :)

Survivor Friday

Survivor Friday wasn't that too good for me!

Survivor Gabon was quite interesting with the new twist. But I really was not happy when Marcus got voted out. While I don't think the he will be the ultimate survivor, I was hoping that he could hang-around until the merge. The reason I don't think he will be the ultimate survivor is because he is too smart and too strong for others. In other words, other people than his alliance see him as a threat. I will miss him! (Char! .. hehe)

I think it was also quite interesting that Bob, the 58-year old, was there fighting it out for the immunity in an endurance challenge. Talk-about age! (Ayos!)

Survivor Philippines was a disappointment last Friday!

I felt a "crime" was committed against a Survivor fan (or just me maybe) when they decided to do a cliff-hanger episode and divulge next week the latest cast-away to be voted out. I understand "to be continued" episodes in TV series - X-Files, Lost, Heroes, CSI. I understand "to be continued" episodes in The Amazing Race. I understand Ryan's Seacrest in American Idol when he says we'll find out who is safe "after the commercial break." But I do not get it when you do that in a Tribal Council is Survivor franchise, which is aired every week night. Preposterous!

I knew the reason of such "cliff-hanger" - Pinoy Fear Factor will be shown next Monday (I also don't like the everyday Pinoy Fear Factor thing, but I am not a big Fear Factor fan anyway). Anything for the ratings in this side of the world. Oh, well! For that, I decided not to watch episodes of Survivor Philippines which do not involve challenges and tribal councils. I don't think they will care anyway. Period.

Dazed and Confused

I think I know why I am dazed and confused lately. I think I just think too much.

I think of things what I have to do. I think of things that I need not do but I do it anyway.

I think of possible consequences and endless possibilities.

I think I work best at a momentum rather on a roller coaster. I think I do ok with learning curves. I think that when I am at my very peak, I should then take a break for a while to recharge, before I reach my breaking point.

I think I should watch any of the movies being shown. I think I choose not to watch any of them anytime soon.

I think I need a haircut soon.

I think I think of others too much. I think they don't think of me much. I think I am paranoid.

I think I am a cautious person. I think I am not a risk taker.

I think I can live with other's principles. I think I find it hard to contradict myself.

I think people are confusing. I think that some people do not really care.

I think some people do not reflect upon themselves. I think I do, too, at times.

I think some people forget that when they talk about others, they do not see that they are what they talk about.

I think some people are disappointing. I think they impose too much on other people and yet, I wonder what their reaction will be if you impose on them.

I think there are stuff that I get really excited about.

I think I want to take a break sometime soon, even just for a day.

I think I want to see Michael John's on the 3rd week of November at the Ayala Malls. I think that is not probable.

I think I will miss "3 Dads and 1 Mommy".

I think I compare the US Survivor and Survivor Philippines a lot. I think you cannot blame a fan.

I think Survivor is totally different with Fear Factor, as to the game itself.

I think I like Ryan Agoncillo saying "Ako po si Ryan Agoncillo at ito ang Pinoy Fear Factor Argentina, South America." I think I used to mimic him saying "I'm Ryan Agoncillo and this is The Explorer." I think I am not a Ryan Agoncillo fan.

I think I am again at this point where things are at a blur. I think this happens when I get to think of the day according to what is shown on television. I think this indicates that I am stressed.

I think I like David Archuleta's "Crush".

I think I should distance myself so that I would not think too much. I think it is not that easy nor possible.

I think I don't like to hear "beh" when someone asks a favor. I think I find it a little bit irritating if people plead with the use of many "please" when they ask for a request. I think a single "please" or without the "beh" would suffice.

I think I find it sad when people break-up. I think they should be ok later on.

I think I should study for exams.

I think the title should not be "Dazed and Confused". I think it should be "I Think."

I think this blog is long already.

High School Life

High School ...

For the past few weeks, I got to see some pictures which made me think about high school.

I was browsing my Friendster account and I stumbled upon the wedding pictures of a "friendster" on her wedding day. She and her husband came from the same high school, although we do not belong to the same batch. I was just happy seeing that her high school friends and his high school friends had "major roles" in their wedding. I think it's just nice to see such friendships going strong.

About a week ago, I also received a message as to updating the PWC Alumni Directory but I only remembered forwarding the message to my batchmates tonight .. hehe.

I also got to see pictures of my sister and her high school friends, and they're all there in the US of A. Nice!

Just a few hours ago, I also browsed my Friendster account and what do I see? A reunion of some sorts of my batchmates in Dubai!! I really find it great that there were 7 of them and there they were, hanging out! Lingaw!

It got me thinking to that time when I was in Manila and my batch mates and I had a get together. That was las January 2004 and I think we were around 8 that time.

And it's not just that planned get-together. There are those simple meet ups with the respective group of close friends, attending a wedding or a baptism. Little things that when you look back, it's nice to think about.

Last December, a number of us also hung-out twice - in BakBak and in Woodridge.

Last December 2003, we had our official "reunion" and that was really fun :)

From Davao to Manila to Dubai .. hmm, where to next?

Blank

I am fully aware that I have not blogged for quite a number of days.

It's not that nothing happens with my life. Actually, a lot is happening. I guess I am just livin' a life.

There are a number of things I have to do.

There are a number of things I think about.

There are a number of stuff I have to worry.

There are a number of blessings I have to be thankful for.

There are a number of people I do not know how to react to.

I do think of things to blog. But when I am in front of this "Compose Blog Entry", my mind goes blank.

I do not know what to write.

I do not know where to begin.

I do not know how to express my sentiments.

I do not know why I dwell on a lot of stuff.

I do not know when is the right time to write.

Maybe my mind is not that "blank". I got to post this blog.

I think I am just confused :)

I Dreamed of Africa

Dream Destination: AFRICA

I love to travel. And just like any other person, I have my personal dream travel destination. And that would be Africa.

Honestly, I first dreamt of being able to go to Paris and be at the Eiffel Tower. I think that was until Survivor 3:Africa. And I was also influenced by Amazing Race 1 (I think) where they went to Victoria Falls.

The dream was sort of rekindled when Survivor 17:Gabon began two weeks ago. I was thinking of writing about it but I just never got into it .. hehe.

Here now comes an article written by Marc Nelson in the Philippine Star today.

It is a nice read.

So, I felt that it was just about time to blog about it.

The biggest reason why I am dreaming of Africa is probably because of what its nature offers - close encounters with animals. Yes, I've seen a number of animals but they were in zoos. So, it would be definitely an experience seeing them in their natural habitat. Swimming with the great white shark is also an experience to look forward to in Africa. And there's Victoria Falls, which I was truly amazed when I was watching Amazing Race. And of course, the people there :)

It may take some time for this dream to become a reality. I still do not have that much money. And I still haven't found traveling buddies for this dream trip.

But for now, I think dreaming would suffice.

Funny

It’s funny when you think about a person for no reason

And suddenly, you see that person out of the blue

It’s funny when you think you know that person

And yet, you hesitate to acknowledge when you meet such person

It’s funny when you think so much has changed

And still, you are so sure that you can still recognize such person

It’s funny when you are so sure of that person

And then, you just dismiss such encounter

It’s funny when there is really not much to that

And in spite of it, I still find it funny why I am blogging about it

I wonder if such person finds it funny, too :)

9 Guys, A Girl and a TV Set!

Una sa lahat ... natatawa ako sa ginawa kong ito .. hehe!

Anyhow, these guys basically represent on what TV shows I am currently hooked to.

Jeff Probst - Survivor Gabon (QTV Fridays @ 2 pm)

Jaden of 3 Dads and 1 Mommy (ABS-CBN Mon-Thurs Primetime Bida)

Dr. John Carter of ER (Hallmark Weekdays @ 2 pm)

Oliver of The Amazing Race Asia 3 (AXN Thursdays @ 9 pm)

Jake of 3 Dads and 1 Mommy (ABS-CBN Mon-Thurs Primetime Bida)

Fox Mulder of X-Files (12 noon Weekdays on AXN Beyond)

Mr. Young of of 3 Dads and 1 Mommy (ABS-CBN Mon-Thurs Primetime Bida)

JC of Survivor Philippines (GMA Weeknights)

Ariel of 3 Dads and 1 Mommy (ABS-CBN Mon-Thurs Primetime Bida)

I love TV!!!