Cry

Before I left for Manila to work, I felt that I was the type of person who cries rarely.

From then on, I think I became more sensitive. It was more easy for me to cry. Maybe it was the distance. Maybe all the emotions I kept all those years came out. I don't know why.

I cried when our pet Tootsie died recently. I cried when I explained to my mom when the father of my classmate/friend died. I cried when I told stories to my housemates when I was in Manila. I cried when I was asked if we could do our job. I cried when I felt I made so many errors. I cried when we left our sister in the US. I cried when she left to study for the US. I cried when my mom left for Davao and I would be working in Manila. I cried when the RP Basketball team lost against South Korea in the 2003 Asian Games. I cried when my friend broke up with her boyfriend. I cried when the older kids in Goin' Bulilit left the show. I cried when a cab driver told me about his faith.

But I haven't cried over Ryan-Juday. I don't think I will :)

Yes, I do cry. It may be for different reasons. I am just human. I may not be ultra-sensitive nor soft-hearted. But I cry. I just seldom show it.

Tootsie

She could have been Britney. My sister just beat me into naming her.

Tootsie was born last September 17, 2000.

Our dear and first-ever pet Tootsie died last December 7, 2006. She died of pyometra, something to do with her matres (english ba to?). We decided not to operate her because aside from being expensive (approximately P3,000), we felt she would be too old to undergo such operation. So, we let her go.

Before I left for school that day, I told her to wait for me to get home. When I got home, she was still alive, struggling so to speak. She had difficulty in breathing as the enlargement of her matres affected her heart. I was crying when I saw her. I said to her that it's OK, she can go now. (I can't believe I am still teary-eyed).

I'm pretty sure every one will agree with me that it hurts when someone we care for has to go, even it is just a pet. Before Tootsie, I was quite hesitant to have a pet in the house because I was pretty sure that it would be a great responsibility, even if I have 4 more siblings. I felt that eventually, we would let our helper take care of our pets (good thing that our helper loves dogs ... but we still do our share). But Tootsie was indeed a right decision.

Here are 5 reasons why I love Tootsie:

1. Her somewhat-curly hair

2. Potty-trained ... unlike our other dogs, Tootsie is the only one who underwent potty training ... she doesn't pee nor poo inside our house.

3. Being behaved when we bathe her.

4. The feeling I get when I caress her.

5. Her excited bark whenever someone from the household is around the corner.

I miss Tootsie!