Transformer

There are moments which define the individuals that we are. Sometimes, such moments reinforce who we already are. Sometimes, it shows that we are more capable than what is expected of us. Sometimes, it depicts how much is expected of us - how we lived up to such expectation or how much we have disappointed others.

I never expected a few reactions I received after the Conflicts of Law. Yup, Conflicts ra gihapon ni .. I know, dapat magmove-on na. But there are things that need to be addressed .. hehe

Just a quick refresher. I blogged the following last January 12:

This year, we want to have fun more than anything else. This was my mantra last year and I am making the same mantra this year. If our aim is to have fun, winning will most probably follow. Kung mapildi, at least nalingaw mi! Since nag-amot nami ani, why not do our best, have fun and have that passion for excellence?

A number of our players last year will now be playing for second year. On my part, I do not ask them not to participate and not to do their best just to give way for us. I ask them to do what they want to do. We all just have one life to live anyway!

I just pray that they don't get offended with those words that I say. It is all in the spirit of fun. When I say see you in court, then, we will see each other in court. When I say we will do our best, yes, we will do things with the passion for excellence. And besides, I only say these to those that I really know. Ginasabi ko lang ito dun sa mga alam ko na alam nila na lingaw-lingaw lang gud sa akin. Ayaw ko na yang kalaban-kalaban, unless ako na ang ginakalaban .. Ah! Ibang usapan na iyan .. haha!

I am quite saddened that there are a few who felt I have "transformed" before and during the said Conflicts of Law. I am not sure about the after part .. I guess you have to ask such persons .. hehe.

I need not explain everything here as I believe this is a personal issue to those persons who felt slighted with how the way I acted during the past few weeks. I have already talked to them. But there is still one conversation that is still to be concluded .. niabot man gud si ma'am .. hehe.

Yes, maybe there was a side of me that was shown of which a number of people did not expect. I guess some did not expect that I would be joining the cheerdance competition and the bottles and straws. Heck, I even had some reactions when I said I was going to attend the badminton practice. Maybe they did not expect that I would support the grievance complaint.

But we are the ones who create expectations based on what we see, feel and experience. But such basis are sometimes limited. And the next thing you know, each individual goes out-of-the-box definition.

Yes, I admit I am emotionally competitive. When push comes to shove, I just don't sit and watch. I take action. But not to the extent that I offend other people. As I have explained, my intentions were always clear and I act in good faith. If I have offended you, I am sorry. If your perception of me has changed, I will respect that. In the first place, you were the ones who created such impression of me. I never pretended something that I am not. As I have said, I try to be consistently inconsistent. A predictable life is quite a bore .. hehe.

Anyhow, medyo nagets ko na why a few had negative reactions. All the while I was thinking that I was kidding and joking .. teasing about "see you in court" and all such kanchaw. As I've said in my previous blog, lingaw-lingaw lang to. It so happens that other mistook it as if I was serious. Am I serious? hehe .. All those kanchaw were in the spirit of fun for me and I delivered such punch lines only to those I know na ma-joke-an ko. Sorry, if naintimidate or na-offend kayo sa hirit ko. Sana sinabi na ninyo na hindi ok sa inyo kasi joke-joke lang talaga sa akin iyong mga hirit na iyon. Feel ko kasi sport kayo and mahiritan ko kayo. Mali pala ako :(

For now, medyo clear na siya konti for me. I hope ok na rin iyong iba. Wala man akong problema. If feel niyo na nag-transform ako, so be it. Ang important for now is that in the end, all is well :)

Ok? Study na ta balik :)