Consistently Inconsistent

I told one of my classmates that I try to be consistently inconsistent.

For me, this means that I am unpredictable.

It is pretty hard when I try to create this image that this is me. It is quite hard because that means once I deviate, people will notice and will make a fuss over it.

Take for example - the way I dress.

I am not a fashionista. I am most comfortable with shirt, jeans and pair of rubber shoes. My comfortable boots come in handy, too. But I do comply with dress codes. I do not have difficulty when it comes to conformity.

Nevertheless, no matter how I try to be unpredictable, there will always be that part that I am expected to be just because of precedence.

Today, I was in my formal get-ups. Yup, formal blouse, boots and black pants with belt. I was in my "going to work" outfit. But I just found it funny when people started to notice that I had a belt on, that I was wearing this attire.

Actually, I try to wear my formal outfits every now and then so that I could still use my office clothes. Anyhow, I also decided on that outfit since I was going to report in our Bus Org .. hehe.

Anyway, what I am trying to say is that no matter how I try to be consistently inconsistent, other people will always have that certain perception of me. I have been wearing formal get-ups every now and then since I was in first year law school. Some people just didn't notice it. I do wear that kind of outfit every now and then.

This just means that I may be consistently inconsistent in my own eyes, but I radiate a consistent attitude or personality or aura when I deal with others. Yes, this goes beyond the way I dress.

Yes, I am pretty sure that there will be never-ending hirits when they see me all dressed up - make-up, no eyeglasses, dress .. the total make-over. I do have had offers of make-overs from a few people. When the right occasion comes up .. perhaps .. hehe

For now, I still try to be consistently inconsistent ... even if only within my own perception :)

Weird

I find myself really weird.

Here are 5 reasons why I know I am weird:

1. I tuck my shirt when I go to sleep (insert na kung insert). Laugh all you want .. hehe!
2. I read out loud my reply in text messages sometimes. Yup, I do not just read the text messages I receive out loud. As in, if my reaction is "ngek! naunsa?" you will probably here it from me as I am "typing" my message.
3. I do not drink coffee and alcoholic drinks. Yes, I have tasted them .. that's why I don't drink them ... haha! But I do drink those icy cold fruity choco frappes whatever. I think they are coffee. I do sip to taste test a new drink. Yes, I have taken a drink or two out of respect but I have never been drunk, not even close. But that's about it. A number of people I know ask how am I doing in law school without drinking coffee. I don't know. I try to sleep 6 to 8 hours a day. If there's an exam the next day, 5 hours should be good. I know, coffee is an anti-oxidant. Oh well .. I do love regular Coke though! But I don't drink it to keep me wide awake.
4. I eat candies during exams, preferably Snow Bear. If Snow Bear is not available, any menthol candy. I have been doing this since I was in high school. I had candies when I took the CPA board exam. I think I am allowed to eat them during the bar exam .. I hope!
5. I used to be a thumbsucker. When I was in Grade Four, I still found myself sucking my thumb in school ... nge talaga! After when I noticed that, and I think my Grade 4 teacher noticed it, too (bless her soul), I stopped doing it in school. I think I was in first year high school when I totally stopped doing it. Until now, I can't figure why I was such a thumbsucker. They say thumbsuckers are insecure people. I don't think I am insecure. But maybe I am. I do not just know it. I remembered when I was around 8 years old and my aunt rubbed "sili" on my thumb. I put sugar on it just so I could suck it, pero halang gihapon. They said that my thumb would deform. It did not. My left thumb is doing ok, with no traces of being abused over a number of years .. hehe

These are just a few of my quirks. There is a lot of stuff that I can still share, probably weirder than these 5.

I think there is no one in this world who really knows the whole me. Although, I know that what people see in me is the real me.