Coincidence

Coincindences, great or small, amazes me.

I need not necessarily know the reason why such things happen or what they mean. All I know is that they happen.

It's great to know that you do things just because you want to.

Sounds vague?

There are times in law school where I take time to read bar questions and reviewers. I do not retype them all the time.

When we took up Obligations and Contracts back in first year, I took the liberty of looking for bar exam questions related to our topics for our third exam. I re-typed it, along with some questions from reviewers, and shared it. I think there were at least 3 questions that were asked from that compilation. Most of my classmates were also happy since they remembered the answers to those questions. I was happy for them. I was happy for me.

Unfortunately, there were just 14 of us who passed that subject :(

Whenever there is an opportunity and I have read all the basic stuff which I planned to read, I do enjoy group studies. It makes me remember things easily. In group studies I joined, there were questions that were asked that I was thankful that we were able to discuss it.

Last week, I also compiled bar questions for Provisional Remedies. Two questions came up in our exam. My classmates noticed. Some of them got the answer. I was happy.

The other class had their exam on Evidence last Saturday. Since I am still a "concerned citizen" as to my former classmates, I asked my former classmate "why is the best evidence rule a misnomer?", just to try if he already studied. I did not know the answer at that time but I asked him to look for it.

Anyway, I also told another former classmate if she had a compilation of UP Bar Questions. She said that she has. I checked it. I told her it did not include "the misnomer question". I gave her a copy since I had it photocopied.

I don't know what made me ask that question to them. I just did. It was the kind of question that constantly lingered on my mind. To think that it was not for my exam. And to think that I can't remember the answer to that question right now.

That question came up. I was happy because they knew the answer. I pray that they answered it satisfactorily.

I hope they did well. I hope we did well.

There are things that we notice because they make a big deal.

We notice these coincidences because they strike us.

If I would have asked 30 questions and none of it came out, it would not be as much as a big deal if 2 questions from such compilation were asked in an exam.

It's all about perspective.

It's all about how we view things.

It's all about our choice to take a look.

It's all about what we think matters to us.

That's when we notice these coincidences!

Veronica Mars

I was able to catch an episode of Veronica Mars the other day.

I am not an avid viewer of this show but I do watch it if had some time to kill and there are no better shows on TV.

Anyway, the detective stories - the racist and the drinking under the legal age - were quite okay.

But I am more interested in sharing Veronica's love life ... hehe.

Please pardon if I am not so familiar with the characters.

Anyhow, Veronica and Logan already broke up. Logan is already dating someone. This someone invites Veronica to her birthday celebration, which I believe was held at Logan's pad. And so, to show that she is not bitter and cool with everything, Veronica agrees to attend the party. She also asks her two friends to be her wingmen, para hindi naman siya magmukhang kawawa na siya lang mag-isa. Wallace says ok. The other guy hesitates, then, says ok. Wallace says that he thought he was going somewhere. And the other guy says that it was all right. Wallace mentions something about going in and not taking things in stride - something to that effect. He explains that this guy friend seems to be one of those who watches others play poker and thinks that he is actually playing poker. Wallace tells him to just go in.

Wallace and the other guy actually attended the party but they came ahead of Veronica. Anyhow, Veronica had conversations with Logan and the birthday celebrator. A cake was presented by Logan, with a picture of him and the birthday celebrator. When Veronica was given a slice of the cake, she got that portion with Logan's face on it - irony of all irony.

Veronica is pestered by some other guy. Off she goes to her other guy friend and asked her to pretend that he is her boyfriend. And the other guy, thus, pretends.

Wallace comes to Veronica and asks her not to lead this other guy friend because he will get hurt in the end.

And so Veronica gets to talk to other guy friend. He doesn't say anything and kisses Veronica and leaves.

On the way out, Wallace asks the guy friend if he's okay ... he says "he went in". He was smiling.

Veronica went after him at the elevator and asks him why he left. The other guy says that he should leave since the night could not end better. Veronica kissed her.

The elevator door opens. Logan sees them kissing.

Oh, see! Interesting scenario indeed. I am not sure where it leads and I am not sure if I will be able to see the next episode.

But that was pretty ok.

Don't get me wrong. I am still not a romantic person.

I just felt that the circumstances and scenarios in that episode were quite interesting!

Worst Case Scenario

Actually, it was not just a scenario. The worst thing actually happened.

Our exam for Prov Rem was scheduled initially scheduled today. However, our beloved Dean was rushed to the hospital last Sunday.

Of course, I was one of those who fervently prayed for his recovery. I actually prayed to the Lord "na bahala na mag-exam, ma-ok lang si Dean." I am pretty sure everybody has a high regard for Dean. Our Civ Pro last sem with him made me thankful that I became his student. (Sayang lang because I had a number of classmates who failed .. but that's another story) And I was, nevertheless, still happy because he is our professor in our Provisional Remedies class.

Last Wednesday, some of us in class decided to visit him at the hospital. He was still in ICU. We took our turns seeing him since only one visitor is allowed at one time. When it was my turn, I just told him to get well soon and that we all miss him. And then, he asked, through some sort of sign language and mouthing of words, if ngayon ba exam ko?".

DEAN talaga si dean. He was still in ICU but he was still thinking about our exams. We thought that it would not push through. And when Dean asked me such action, all I could say was "bukas pa Dean". That was our conversation.

And so, we were fervently praying that it would not push through today. But it did.

There was some miscommunication and misunderstanding. I just pity those who could have done better if we were better prepared, especially our president who tried all means to move the exam. Thanks for the effort, I appreciate it.

Anyhow, I just find it weird that I was accepted the verdict that our exam would push through. I wasn't able to study as much as I shoul and as much as I need to.

If there was any silver lining, there were around 3 questions in the Prov Rem Bar Questions which I researched and prepared. I pray it helped the others as well.

I am not sure why I was calm. I am like that when I know I can't do anything about the situation. Maybe because I was estopped ... I already prayed for Dean's recovery and I already told Dean that we would have the exam on Thursday. I also jokingly told my classmate that the reason why we had no teachers last Wednesday is because our exam would push through tonight. It did.

In the end, I did forget a number of things.

Right now, I am not pretty sure how good I feel about that exam.

Right now, I don't feel to great with the two exams I had, the other one is Tax.

I have to make bawi soon before it is too late.

Hai .. law school !

So Real

**This blog was written last Saturday (July 21)

I may not be that burned out anymore. I still have things to do but I am, nevertheless, ok.

As always, so many things have happened since my last blog. I guess this was obvious with no new blog.

Anyhow, I am somehow relieved that I am not one of our class officers.

Kapoy naman gud. Sabi nga ni Dolphy, "Madali lang tumakbo. Papano kung manalo?"

Being a class officer is somehow a big deal in law school (although I don't really know why .. hehe). There are people who are meant to be officers at this stage in school. I already had my share and that was good enough for me. For people who know me for the longest time, (in short, since grade 1) you probably know the reason why.

Gustohin ko mang maging mascot, walang ganung posisyon. Gustohin ko mang maging muse, as if, kelangan ata ng prince charming .. san ako kukuha nun?

Election in law school is quite different. There is basically no nomination. Basta yung top 4 lang, yun na ang president, vice-president, secretary and treasurer. And then, the respective organizations would have their line-ups.

Masaya na ako sa kung ano ang involvement ko outside of my personal studies. There's my organization and that whole transcription thing. And then, there's the 3-SR Acad Com so to speak .. haha! Classmate ko nagdesignate ng title, hindi ako ha! 3-SR section namin. Hindi nga ako officer ... sa acad com naman. At least walang pressure ...

As of press time, I am not aware of any comments ka-feeling ko naman na ako pa mismo mag-decline ng position. Heller! Ano ako mag-suicide? hehe. There may be some people who would think that I am "plastic" by saying that I am "not-so-real" by saying that I am not interested. Oh well, that's their opinion.

Last night, I had dinner with 4 of my guy classmates. O di ba, one of the boys! hahaha ... Dinner, akala mo formal, eh P37 lang iyong dinner ko na sisig with rice plus mountain dew. Mukhang natuwa naman sila sa aming Buzz session na parang ako ang artista ... haha! May mga sagot din ako na mala-Ms. Universe. But it does not mean that I am not telling the truth. Eh sa iyon talaga ang sagot ko sa tanong. Salamat naman and naniwala ang mga classmates ko ... hehe!

Sometimes, it is frustrating to hear people comment on others not being real because it makes me think what is being real?

There's this common misconception, in my perspective that is, that being real means that you should blurt out all your sentiments to the world and that being real means that you should get angry.

I don't really think so. If that would be the definition, then, I may be a "not-so-real" person.

You see, I keep things within myself. Yes, I seldom get angry. If I do, I can brush it off after a few minutes. I am a social person. I can eat merienda with anyone I know in law school, as long as I am invited. If there are misunderstandings, I am sometimes caught in the middle. I say my opinion, but I do not blurt what has been told to me with secrecy.

I may not be the most real person to some other people. I admit that I am a people pleaser. But, that does not mean I am a "fake". What you see is what you get. If I am hurt or angry, I keep my feelings and just pray. Yes, I could die of it ... hehe. Basta, I just let things pass and pray that things will be okay the next day.

We'll have our tax exam this Sunday ... and here I am ... hahaha ;)

Tax Exam namin sa Sunday. And eto ako ... haha ...

Burned Out

I am currently burned out.

You can't blame me. I am only human and I am bound to get tired, not only born to make mistakes ... hehehe

Yesterday and today's events somehow ate up my energy.

Yesterday, we had a quiz in Labor Relations for a good 35 minutes. Right after that, we had our lecture cum recitation for an hour. I was not yet able to assess myself how I did in our quiz and then I have to be listen intently to the lecture because I may be called anytime.

For our quizzes in Labor Relations, one has to memorize. I tried. But somehow, come quiz time, some things just slip right off my head. Hai na lang ...

Then, today, we had a 130-item quiz in Taxation. That would be 79 items of true and false. There's that 35 item "do you know your constitution" thing wherein we have to state the section and article in constitution where such principle is provided for. And then there 26 items identification. I was definitely drained.

For our quiz in tax, I tried to memorize that constitution thing. But, then again, all those numbers got mixed in the way ... wrong combinations of sections and articles. I hope I can make it up in the true or false questions.

If that's enough, there's that constant concern in scheduling our exams. We can't help if there are times that our schedules would not jibe. We can't help if we are put in tight situations wherein we could not say no to our professor. To think that we are just beginning to schedule our exams .... oh, well!

And there's that thought in my mind on the situation I am in -

of putting myself out there,

of making them think that I can do a lot of stuff.

Sometimes, I am put in a situation where I can't say no.

Sometimes, others have to understand I am no superwoman.

I just do those stuff because I can and people expect me to do such.

I know I can always say no.

For now, I just need some time off.

For now, I am thankful that despite all these, people still see me smile. That despite the wrinkles on my forehead and the close encounters of my eyebrows, people notice that I still smile. I appreciate it because it means that despite my worry, in my heart I am probably ok because I am still smiling .. without me taking notice of it.

Tomorrow is another day. Tomorrow is Harry Potter's Day.

That's the break I need.

I Love My Life

For the first time, I will talk about my being single.

I have been asked, probably a hundred times, as to how is my love life.

I have answered back, probably a hundred times as well, "I love my life!".

I should register that as my trade mark.

It's not easy being asked why am I still single. But I have gotten used to it.

My answers vary.

If I had the answer to that question, I have already written a book and made money out of it.

I am still single because Ryan Agoncillo or Keanu Reeves hasn't seen me yet.

I am still single because I am not looking.

I am still single because there is no one.

Yes, I am still single with a clean slate.

I never had a boyfriend.

I have never been courted.

I have never made any first moves.

And I never felt I am incomplete just for that reason.

Others try to give answers for me.

I am unreachable - huwaat!

My standards are high. What standards!

The guys are just blind. And probably deaf!

I am just insensitive. Duh!

I am prone to all those teasings. People do that for fun.

I am ok with it as long as I know that nobody gets offended in any way.

Friends, classmates, teachers, and even my mom's friends. They ask such questions.

I am not bothered nor irritated. I am quite amused.

If you have met me in person, you'll know why I feel great despite not having that love life.

I am blessed.

I love my life!

I hope you do, too!

Go With The Flow ...

It has almost been a month since school started. Right now, I am just going with the flow ....

-oOo-

I have been busy with the transcriptions.

I am not complaining because I am up to the challenge. I can still keep up with things.

Its just that there are some people I can't please. I can't promise the best of anything.

But I am doing the best I could.

It's nice because I get to meet a whole new set of people - across all year levels.

I could even have enough votes to be included in the PBB's Big 4 .. haha

Si Wendy nga nakapasok .. hehe

Of course, there are those that might be disappointed with the delay, with the quality of the print or even the content. I can't guarantee everything. That's the sad reality.

-oOo-

Transformers. Die Hard 4.o. Harry Potter

So many movies to watch.

Good thing I can find time to watch Transformers tomorrow with a dear friend.

Good thing that I have a single friend who has enough super free time to watch it with me.

Good thing that she hasn't watched the movie yet.

-oOo-

Die Hard Fan ng Die Hard.

Actually, I haven't watched any Die Hard movie in a cinema.

I have watched the first Die Hard through a huge TV in Melbourne, Australia in 1995.

I stayed late that night just to finish the flick.

From then on, I am hooked on Bruce Willis.

Yes, he is my ultimate action hero.

Hindi jud siya mamatay-matay.

I got to watch the second and third Die Hard through cable TV.

The second was OK.

The third was awesome, especially with Samuel L. Jackson.

Such nice chemistry.

I like the riddles - the President thing.

I like the challenge - the gallon thing.

I can't wait to watch Die Hard 4.0

-oOo-

After PBB

TV Life has been actually boring after PBB.

The 30 minutes or so dedicated to PBB before is now my 30-minute nap time.

I somehow got lost with the schedule of the other shows.

I am trying to catch up.

-oOo-

Darna

Hindi ako si Darna. Hindi rin ako si Cinderella.

Some ask how I am able to do the things I do.

I don't have a definite answer. I just do it.

-oOo-

Just Dance

I am so proud of our LA Officers with our Just Dance '07.

I am happy that I was able to help out, even though I am just the Academic Committee Head.

I am happy to hear that they enjoyed the event.

I am happy that it didn't rain that much.

I am happy.

-oOo-

Positive-Stroking

There are times when we can't feel the magnitude of our positive effect on other people's lives.

A simple thanks to some other person may be quite normal.

But for me, a simple thanks goes a long way.

It is what keeps me going.

I do things because I can.

I am not asking for payback.
It is nice to know that I was of help.

That matters a lot to me.

-oOo-

Appreciation

Of course, I can't do everything.

That's why I am grateful for those other people who do things for me.

I am grateful to those who listen to what I have to say.

I am grateful to those who are just there.

I am not the type of person who asks for favors a lot.

If I can do it, I will do it.

If I can't, thank you for doing it for me.

-oOo-

Great Minds

It's nice when friendship remains after all these years.

I am always proud of that fact that I have friends since Kinder .. hehe.

I am ecstatic to find that we still share a lot of things in common.

It's nice that after all these years, we still think alike.

-oOo-

Trust

Trust is a big thing to me.

Modesty aside, I think people trust me easily.

Unfortunately, I only trust a few.

I am happy with my friends right now.

Some I have known since Kinder, Grade School or High School.

Some I have known in College.

Some I have known when I was working.

Some I have known in Law School.

Friendships were built over the years ... over the months.

And I thank you all for that

Ano to? Farewell speech .. hehehe

Just going with the flow!